Thursday, March 4, 2010

Should I Close My Blog

I would like some honest opinions.

Lately, I have not been posting any articles. The reason is that I have been seriously questioning my faith. I have tried very hard to make certain that anything posted on my blog was in line with Catholic teaching. Regardless of my believes, I think that the religious articles can still be used by faithful Catholics. But I don't want to be a hypocrite and give anyone the impression that I am not having doubts.

Although I won't go into the specifics of my spiritual life, I will say that there is much about Catholicism that I still find beautiful. From the time that I was small, it was always Catholics who reached out to help me, often without any intent to convert me. They were just being kind. There is no anger in my heart toward the Catholic Church.

My doubts are about Christianity in general, so it isn't a question of changing denominations. Until I work this out, I will try and stay away from writing religious articles. Everyone finds peace and comfort in their own way and I would never jeopardize another person's faith.

So, what do you all think? Should I close this blog down?


Selvaraj said...

No, you shouldn't!

Thou Art Jules said...

For me personally, my blog is about me, my family and what is going on in our lives with some snippets of whatever I'm learning/studying etc. But, mainly my blog is for ME. I use it to look back and see what was going on when. I can see how I've grown, what's changed etc. I can't imagine giving it up completely :-)

Perhaps you could make your blog private, continue to post (maybe even more openly if you know nobody is reading it) and see how that goes. Who knows, when you work through this you may want to share the process.

Best of luck to you either way!

Luke Holzmann said...

This is certainly up to you, but I think the interwebs are a great place to find people to talk with about questions and doubts. Granted, you'll find people who will push and pull you in both directions. But I've been very encouraged by several great bloggers who have struggled with some pretty heavy theological stuff and come out better for it. Who knows, you may gain extra insights by posting your thoughts...

Then again, there are so many opinions out here, that may not prove to be helpful...

May you have wisdom as you move forward!


ignorant redneck said...

Please don't. That you have doubts is normal. Faith isn't an emotion, it's a decision. It's a decision to accept as true the teaching we have recieved from Christ, through the Apostles.

I can't think of anyone who makes a decision and then doesn't second guess it. The real job is the follow through.

Questions and doubts are where our faith is stregthened. And questions and doubts are where Satan tempts us, as well. Remember that we are all doing battle with powers and pricipalities.

Just hang in there, bearing in mind that grace flows even in times of doubt and dryness--perhaps then most of all.

Besides, I'm looking foward to meeting you in heaven.

DM said...

I just found your blog and hope that you continue to post. I would love to email chat with you about some of the issues you raise in this posting, but do not wish to intrude on something as personal as struggles with faith, belief, and doubt. You will find YOUR way, and that is the important thing.

I will say this: A loving god would never blame you for using the mind he gave you. An unloving one isn't worthy of your worship. A nonexistent one is nothing to worry about. So do whatever thinking, reading, and writing you need to without fear.

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Anonymous said...

yes you should close your blog, you are telling lies and taking things out of context. They are wrong, and I hope the Lord convicts your heart. You are picking the Lord's people apart, and if you are saved, you are picking your brother and sister in Christ apart, and you should be uplifting and encouraging. thanks

deb said...

Hello Anonymous, It would have been nice if you had left your name so that I don't confuse you with other anonymous posters.

Sara said...

I just found your blog... wow... thank you for writing! I am very interested in your reviews of the Pearl's method... I am recovering from a mother who worshipped Michael and Debbie!

And... maybe you shouldn't allow "anonymous" comments. If someone is going to write shit like that on your blog... they need to at least include their name.


Rebekah said...

Hi Deb,

I just found your blog. Thank you for posting so honestly about everything. I'm a Catholic with several degrees in Theology and Scripture Studies, as well as Counselling. I am very against corporal punishment and appreciate all that you expose on here.

Having doubt is a very human thing to experience. I think instead of pulling away, perhaps you need to fully experience this doubt an work through it. From where is it coming? When did you first start to experience it? I know myself, and even priests, nuns and fellow theologian friends have experienced this. You're not alone!!

PS - No I am NOT Rebekah Pearl; I am from Canada.